Regret - a hopeless Feeling.

Regret – it is such a hopeless feeling.

Words taken from ‘Fragile Edge – lost on Everest’ Maria Coffey.

Some combination of word’s evoke the meaning of your life at that moment in time. Reading the above book written by the lover of a man who lost his life trying to reach the summit of the biggest mountain in the world via a difficult route, these words presented themselves on a page. She is retracing his last steps and aiming for the advance base camp to see the last place her true love was seen.

Regret is a hopeless feeling. You can’t stop it reaching into your conscious mind and starting to destroy however you are feeling at that time. It starts of so innocently, a distant memory recaptured, the though of a loving embrace for the person you are missing, remembering the good times you had together. Then regret strikes, winding around all your thoughts like an unravelling boa constrictor. Regret that you won’t be there together in the future to capture those moments again together. Knowing that those future memories - yet to be created - will be between your past lover, friend, partner and someone else.

True you will, in time, create these feelings with someone else yourself, but that doesn’t stop the regret closing in. And from regret the other feelings of hopelessness start to arise – pain, anger, frustration, self pity, the loneliness of missing someone you have been with for a lot of years. All of these emotions come together to drag you into a dark void of nothingness.